Recent events have forced me to examine the concept of being true to one’s self. At times I believe we all fall under the misguided concept that we need to conform to how others view us to keep the status quo steady.
I have done that for the longest time. YEARS and YEARS. I now see that that is a flawed concept.
As I age I believe I have become more tolerant. The little things don’t get under my skin as they used to. In one area I have headed in the other direction. I will not accept being treated without honest respect for who I am.
Within the concept of being truer to myself I have found my voice. I have found the Jo who wanted to and did climb mountains.
While I may shed a tear at them passing from my life. I know that being true to myself sometimes means walking away from those who would mould you in to their concept of who you should be. It means ignoring those that would make you feel a lesser being because fear no longer forces you to stay silent, not cuss, or walk ahead as they huddle together in their sameness.
I have a concept of who I am…it evolves. I hold tight to the core – the parts that are the framework that keep me straight and steady. I gather new aspects from time to time. I discard the parts I feel no longer serve me.
It’s my concept. It will twist and spin and change. It will have days or weeks when it isn’t perfect. I will try things on like new clothes. Hanging the ones that I like in the cupboard that is me, to be worn when I want and how I want.
I will no longer fear to let you see the real me. As I do not fear to see the real you.
I use the following words.
- piss off
…and on occasion [not often]
I have political, cultural, social and religious views and opinions. I will express my opinions on all those areas.
I know there are other fearless beings out there who are not afraid of others whose concepts of themselves are somewhat alien to their own. My hope is that we will find each other.
Some may choose to accept my concept of Jo and I will love you for it.
If you choose not to I will cherish the memories of you, let you go and hope you find someone more suitable to spend your time with.
For this designing/building/moulding of the concept I hold of who I am…who I want to be, is too important for me to ever let go of again.
So go on over to Jake’s. Take the flying dragon and see what others think of CONCEPT.