Great Days

The last couple of days have been good days. Well, great days really. Which is surprising because the days before were not.

They were just like a lot of days we all have. Days you’d rather forget. Days when you doubt yourself and everything you’ve become.

Days when you look in the mirror and wonder when you got so lost you’re not even sure you want to find your way back.

When I started to work on becoming a writer, a real writer, not just someone who had a drawer full of poems and stories that no-one would ever see, I told everyone – including myself – I understood rejection.

I had no idea that it actually hurt, physically hurt, when people said thanks but no thanks. They really do say that. And they’re telling me my writing isn’t good enough.

That for every ‘not bad’ there would be a hundred ‘not right for us’ or ‘thanks for contacting us but we’ll pass this time’ e-mails and letters.

You don’t notice it at first. The little leaks in your self confidence. They’re like the cam belt in your engine, wearing away – then boom. Engine blows up, car, well time to get a new one.

It sounds so self pitying. It was.

Then I tried for a guest blog spot I really wanted the other day. I sent it off, expecting to get the ‘thanks…’ e-mail. I did, but they asked if I wanted to rewrite it and send it in again.

Yesterday they said thanks. Nothing else, no maybe next time, just thanks, that’ll do. I felt like Babe for a minute there.

Then I got a little excited. Two littles actually.

This morning I got up to deal with a neighbour who had torn out my hedge when I wasn’t looking. Expected a battle. Instead I’m getting a new fence – for nothing.

Can you see where this is heading?

Off I went this afternoon to my local writers group. After a month struggling with chapter 6 of THE BOOK, I put it aside and started chapter 7 instead – yesterday.

These ladies are good, really good writers, and I knew I had to have something. Chapter 7 is almost finished, and for a first draft it’s making me happy.

I am feeling the contentment when I get home. Checking my e-mails there was one there from a poetry magazine I had submitted 3 poems to a while ago, hoping 1 might be accepted. I didn’t want to open it and ruin what was.

I am so glad I did. They want all 3 poems. All 3.

GREAT DAYS.

And I remembered something. Something I’d forgotten on the other days.

Why we have the other days.

They turn good days into great days.

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Author: Jo Bryant

I was born in the land of Banjo Paterson, gum trees, and weather extremes. I am a freelance writer. I live in the Bay of Plenty, New Zealand, but still like to claim my Australian heritage. I graduated with a Bachelor of Communications in 2008. I am writing my first novel. I love to write poetry, short stories, and also write for the web. And there is nothing that is on a par with a sunny summer's day spent at Waihi Beach.

2 thoughts on “Great Days”

  1. Yes, you’re right, Jo. Life can be valleys and mountains.
    You have had more than your share of living in the valleys and trying to scramble inch by inch up the valley to the mountain, ripping your fingernails in the process, but you are there now.
    Not being cynical, but enjoy the view as there will be other times in the valley, but hopefully now you have your Alpine rope, crampons, and other equipment, rescaling those heights will be easier.
    Take heart from the writer of ‘The King’s Speech’ -he has ‘made’ it at 73, after starting way back writing for the pilot of ‘Shortland Street’, can’t see any comparison to be frank, other than that the kiwi link makes us swell with pride. But he has obviously persevered over the years. And in the Aesop fable of the hare and the tortoise we all know who wins in the end, and the quality it takes/took to get there.
    My daughters would cringe to hear me say this, but I shout from the sideline, “Good on you girl!”

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